** This is the starts of a series of posts on Herpes and the Healing Process. You can go the following posts that discuss Herpes and Healing it: Diet, Kundalini Yoga, Energetics Pt1, Energetics Pt2 **
I woke up today at 4:20 AM and was already twenty minutes late for Sadhana. I decided to not do it.
Then at 7:30 am I woke up again. This is the second day that my yoni has been hurting, but it hurts more today. I investigate. I’m having a breakout from Herpes. Great.
I try to go to work and the internet isn’t working. Can’t load a thing.
My body is aching from three hours of yoga yesterday, and my mind is racing about the breakout. I attempt to do yoga and meditate but crumple into a ball of tears on my yoga mat saying screw it.
Here’s the thing that I was contemplating, ladies and gentlemen, as I put away all my teas containing caffeine and cook up ridiculously over-spiced garlic and ginger (gotta put my anger somewhere!) chickpeas (one of the best comfort foods available).
I thought to myself that there are other people with herpes who want to find a natural cure as much as I do. Western Science says that its incurable, and well, I decided a long time ago that I’m a superhero and I just have to figure out how to uncover the superhero part of me, that we all have. This belief system does some interesting things.
One of those things is that when someone says I can’t do something I automatically want to say “That’s bullsh*t. We just don’t know how to do it YET.”
And that’s what I say to you medical doctors who say I have an incurable disease. And this is what I have to say to all of you that are experiencing Herpes.
I’m going to figure this out. Not only for me, but for you, too. We all deserve to live in healthy and whole bodies, and I am not going to have Herpes for the rest of my life. You don’t have to either.
Together, we can figure this out.
Maybe there’s a magic cure in the East we just don’t know of yet. Maybe its a combination of various things that will work. Maybe its a highly individualized programme of diet, exercise and supplements.
All I know is that beginning today I am going to share this part of my journey here.
Why? Because right now my journey is hugely involved with Yoga.
Also, I heard that there are several yogic practices that will clean up my body to being disease free. Let us begin!
I know that its a challenge to know whether or not it goes away, but if I can live without another breakout ever again, I’d be happy with that.
Suggestions?
[…] This is also the chakra that I focused on the most in my healing of Herpes journey which you can read about here! […]
Dearest Serafina,
I can’t tell you enough how pleasantly surprised I’m with your posts about herpes. I, too, bare this virus in my body-mind-soul, however, I had not found any websites where the approach was holistic, not to say spiritual. I was preparing a small document for myself and my partner, so we could inform ourselves thoroughly and make decisions around our strategy to curing it definetely.
Please let me tell you a bit about my story. I am Mexican, 35 y old, I live close to Mexico City, in a little town called Tepoztlan, surrounded by mountains and a wild scenery which I enjoy greatly. My partner, a 55 y old man, gave me herpes almost 4 years ago, the time we have been together as an open couple. We don’t live together, he lives in a city 5 hours from me, but we get to see each other quite frequently and we enjoy this a lot, each having their own solo life and also moments of inmense pleasure when we share time together.
His phisician had told him that he would not pass herpes along if he didn’t have any blisters. Turns out herpes can be contagious even when no outbreaks are present. That’s how I got it. It must have been one of the first times we slept together, a few weeks after I met him and fell madly in love with him. I knew nothing about herpes then. Learning I had a virus which could not be cured, apparently, and knowing I could pass it on to someone else, have been my nibbling bones these years. I, too, started researching around what to do to control and even eliminate this virus. My partner is now very careful when he sleeps with other people, at least my experience has made him conscious around this fact.
It has been one of the most painful and hard journeys I had to go through in my life. Not only the phisical aspect of it, but mainly the emotional side of it. I realize the programs stored in my mind and heart around sex and men are deeply ingrained and very confusive. The process of letting go the anger and resentment has been tough and long. I used to have anger rashes where I would blame this man and myself for something which turned out oh-so-very-wrong for me. Denial and self pity, that is. I slowly have learned to accept the virus is in me, and that there is nothing “wrong” in this reality: I have the virus for a reason and I can embark myself in the adventure of curing it for another reason. This will all take me to new places I never imagined I would go to. A real challenge, a serious work has to be done in so many dimensions.
My research has led me to the following options for curing herpes definetely:
1. Go to psychological therapy and dig deep into the relationship with my parents, my concepts around sexuality, around men and partnership, around control, self-worth, victimism, hate experienced during infancy yet not released. Psychocorporal therapy, also known as bioenergetics, has been particularly profound in dealing with these issues.
I loved loved loved your post about constelations with the virus, its benefits, etc. I will try that for myself asap.
2. Watch closely when do the outbreaks show up. What is my phisical, emotional, spiritual state around the outbreaks. Along with therapy, watch closely how do you feel when the outbreaks occur. In my case, I feel angry, tired, sore, but mainly, vulnerable. One of the main masks I use to protect my real Self is self sufficiency. I can do everything, anywhere, anyhow. I always can. Turns out the lesson is really hard for me: the virus invites me to be vulnerable, weak, take care of myself, connect with myself, face the feelings that I try to hide under the carpet. Sympthoms always speak of the need of the soul, don’t you think? We just have to learn to listen really closely.
Acceptance and observation are fundamental for raising consciousness in why is this experience being experienced. This is also fundamental for “preparing the soil” for planting the seed of the cure. In my belief, the cure cannot be reached through a “I will get rid of this” position. It can only be reached when a “I understand why this is happening, I fully accept it and appreciate it” position is integrated to body, mind and soul.
3. Two energetic techniques have proven to cure ALL types of diseases in their own good time. These are Qi kung (qi gong) and biomagnetism (magnet therapy). Both, when practiced regularly and consciously, are capable of eliminating any energetic unbalance in the physical body, since both affect the etheric and emotional bodies too. I have been trained in Qi kung and tomorrow I start the biomagnetism course.
Funny enough, I have not put to practice these methods as fully as I could, even when I could. I tend to diminish the importance of the virus, and I believe that, since my partner has it too, there is no need to cure it. Funny, huh? I too have been looking into the advantages of having this virus in me. Mainly, this virus helps me to keep myself attached to this partner. I am afraid of losing him and being alone, I repel the idea of being without him and be left alone with the virus. I feel my partner has to stay with me now that he has given me this condition. I force him to stay as “punishment” for his carelessness. In this scenario, the virus is helping me hold on to my partner. No wonder I don’t get cured just yet. This is a big issue I’m working at in therapy. This is related to my relationship with my mother/father since early childhood. I sometimes feel I will only be able to cure myself when this relationship is over. However, in solitude I tend to fall in other pitholes not necessary easier than the ones I fall in when in relationship.
Please do tell me if you are interested in learning about Qi kung or biomagnetism in order to integrate them to your own Kundalini Practice. I have read the meditations you uploaded and I am willing to practice them and enrich my healing pathway.
I am conscious I may not be ready yet to let go of the virus, however, this does not discourage me from learning and practicing more healing techniques. Everthing will take its place in its own good time. A hard lesson I am always learing.
A big hug from Mexico and THANKS again,
Ximena
Wow, I love your well thought out response and your approach to healing this virus. I am always interested in learning more about energy and the way it works ~ I personally have used Reiki and Crystals as well in my journey.
I love how open and honest you are with yourself, which is so important when we are healing. You have to know when you are ready to heal and when you are not ready to heal.
My last breakout happened in January, around the 25th. It was different than the rest, and despite all the stress since then I’m surprised I haven’t had another breakout.
I spoke with a man I met who cured his herpes and he stated that he hasn’t had a break out in five years. He used MMS, Mirical Mineral Supplement, GLO2 Chlorine Dioxide and Melissa officinalis (lemon balm) for breakouts – internal and topical usage. He said that his last breakout was similar to mine – it was different from the rest, still there but not as strong, and just different, so I’m hoping that is really the last of them.
I also received the virus from someone who didn’t have any breakouts. The nurse I spoke to about it said that for men what sometimes happens is the sores will fall off however they are still actively carrying the virus and can pass it on. I guess its a good idea for men to wait a few days after the sores fall off to be safe?
There’s a lot of gifts and self-awareness disease can gift us with on the journey to heal ourselves. It sounds like you have learned and are still learning so much on your journey.
Thank you so much ~ lots of love on your journey!
Praying for you <3
Have you tried colloidal silver. Alot of people with herpes, aids or other ailments report good results from using it. Sovereign silver is one of the best brands.
I haven’t tried colloidal silver for herpes. I have used it for other things though. TBH the best thing I’ve found is when I can feel a breakout coming on to take a shot of baking soda each morning for three days.
I also am continously doing my best to watch and reduce my stress levels, which I personally think, its not such a bad thing to have a dis-ease that strikes often because there is too much stress in life, even though it can be annoying at times.
I guess I’ve come to accept it even though I don’t like it.